Rainy days.....and a retard friend

its been raining nowadays...

it kept me thinking a lot of things...

i've been working hard to improve my maths(hope can get better marks lo...)

i hope my mom could lay off and stop telling me wat to do....

it also made me think of the past....

i thought of the hapy times of my life....

i also thought of the hell i've gone thru in my life...

i was glad i had my father,he was with when i gone thru those times....

i have cried so many times when i was small.....

i never want my own family to be like my fahter's

i always loved my dad and my stepmom....

they were always supporting...

when in came to girls....

i never succeed....especially the last time

when YJ tore my heart,i feel helpless

do good to other people and you juz get backstabbed

well,the wound hasnt reli heal yet,

luckily there was my friends to comfort me,

shu lee juz know wat my heart was made off..

hehe,maybe she juz understands boys....

hoong ling aslo supported me,but nothing came out anyway......

A Retard Friend
well,there was 1 of my friends who is a real retard but like to act cool....

he purposely want to tell everyone he wants to talk to like powei jie jie,

and he simply call other girls jiejie

me and other boys see him,and feels like he retard

in a real retarded way,everytime i see Yj i wont reli talk to her,

then this retarded friend will say why juz over this incident u don talk to her?

then i juz tell the retard juz shut up and mind ur own business....

this retarded friend of mine thinks he is the most popular boy among the girls...

but he actually juz want to LCLy lo....most of the girls call him BAi Chi(means stupid)

......this retard don win me much la....study lose,basketbal lose,shorter than me,and his

face skin very thick....don scared malu loh.

and he like to criticise other ppl and he himself is already a retard....

overall,he is quite a retard who thinks he is the best lo...

leave him be and let him live in his own world

until next time......

last 2 week.....i went back to church

i felt happy....i went in the sanctuary...

i saw all my friends....aoran.....joshua....andy....veng lye

but when i went in....chengching was there at the counter..

taking attenddence...she was smiling....there were many children there....

when she saw me......the first thing she ask me was

:where have you been?u haven came back for a very longtime....

then i juz said

:i was busy with school....

when service started..i felt sad....

that time was the last time i will be there.....

my mother wants me to go tuisyen for form 3.....

i couldnt say no cause at the end we will be argueing....

tuisyen was kinda like part of my life now...

my mom force me to go...

i had no choice....

when service ended,i say goodbye to everybody...

especially veng lye,he's like brother ....

when i was abt to leave....chengching came to me and ask

:will you be back?

then i said

:no...this will be the last time i will ever be here

with a sad tone she ask me again

:why?wat happened?

i told her

:i have to go tuisyen....my mother force me go

she ask me again

:ur parents not christian?

i answered her onli my dad and my stepmother are christian..

then she said

:when will i see you again?

then i tell her

:i donoe,but i will try to come back when i can...i promise,i'm sorry

i left the sanctuary....tears was flowing on my eyes.....

i wonder when i will be back....i don think i will

maybe next year....or a few more years later....i donoe

everyday i think of her....before i sleep or when i wake up

i onli think of chengching....i miss her everyday

i wanna go back...i wanna see her...